travels in another land

restless in the city of rain. swimming in singapore

2006-12-20T21:54:00.000+08:00

its the end of the year and now, sitting in my room, im unneccessarily morose. weird. I've been to 13 countries in the last 12 months and been thr so much shit its almost like my twenty three years were compressed into 12 months.

i tink im kinda tired of trying to be something i myself dont even know wat e fuck. i need a purposeful life with someone supporting me instead of me always supporting those ard me. perhaps thats the way my life is supposed to be.

but im thankful, theres so much blessings this year. and i tink i finally found out wat i really want in life and having the right mindset to make things right.

i tink of you sometimes, and im glad ure smiling and being exciting abt everything in life. that was always ur strength and always will be ;]

i thot i wuld type something good for once. but im too tired to do so.

till nxt time!

2006-07-26T02:33:00.000+08:00

we have so much potential for the greatest of things. Why are we always plagued by such troubles?

2006-07-17T02:18:00.000+08:00

we all need someone we can love

2006-07-16T07:16:00.000+08:00

i change my mind. fuck e heat.
HK is e most amazing place on earth!

;]

2006-07-15T19:02:00.000+08:00

we're going to Macau! the first night u are here ;]

ive booked liao.. very nice hotel ;];] wheee

casino!!!!! heh

nxt 4 nights in HK...all booked! yay

happy.

waiting for u to come

muacks

2006-07-15T15:29:00.000+08:00

I remember in our second year of army. When us guys were so tight. When we were all swinging singles..cept mash of course ( for the record). I remember this quote:

" Good Chings for Good Tymes!"

in our heavily accented cheena-ish slang while passing mash a big davidoff cigar.

Indeed. Good fucking things for many good times. Here's a tribute to Alex Mayhesh and Justin, who made those fucking army days a little better to live with then in 2003. ;]

2006-07-15T05:22:00.000+08:00

im feeling weird tonite. just weird. like for the first time in my life. not sad not angry not anything. they call it emotionless i guess. not even numb man. hah. weird right? like there's so much i wanna say. so much. so much and yet nothing. haha tis is damn funny.. im like laughing at myself now.

its like i dont even comprehend wat i wrote. hah. wtf man.. u know like how laughter is kinda like a form of self depreciation. laughter is laughing bout someone else? which means laughter is founded upon the plight of someone else?

so cyclical.

2006-07-14T04:39:00.000+08:00

had such a good time drinking today.watching the most adorable couple in their 70's present together on stage. learning that integrity is so important. learning that faith and trust is even more important. yes indeed.wow tis conference is something!!! and then kena for coming in late (curfew is 1130pm with alarm sounding if door is opened). yes i activated tha alarm. now kena condemned.haha.and watever..beer beer beer beer and a nice chat. thanks! ;]

peace

2006-07-13T14:39:00.000+08:00

lets make peace
baby
i promise to give in
even when i feel
im not wrong

i'll be a fool for you
i would sing your song
for you
if you would let me be

and maybe then
we can smile
and laugh
in the heat of Hong Kong
together.

P.S this is not a poem ;p

2006-07-13T03:44:00.000+08:00

Zilch

the best date in such a long time!

2006-07-12T03:16:00.000+08:00

this is our song:

It's hard for me to say the things

I want to say sometimes

There's no one here but you and me

And that broken old street light

Lock the doors

We'll leave the world outside

All I've got to give to you

Are these five words tonight

Thank you for loving me

For being my eyes

When I couldn't see

For parting my lips

When I couldn't breathe

Thank you for loving me

Thank you for loving me I never knew I had a dream

Until that dream was you

When I look into your eyes

The sky's a different blue

Cross my heart I wear no disguise

If I tried, you'd make believe

That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me

For being my eyes

When I couldn't see

For parting my lips

When I couldn't breathe

Thank you for loving me

thank you for loving me

see u in HK ;*

you can only lose

2006-07-10T23:51:00.000+08:00

i guess when u choose to leave an organisation, u bear the risks. u have to consider never to be considered again. and can u live with that?

2006-07-10T16:04:00.000+08:00

(Oh baby, when I`m calling out) Give me love and affection,Keep telling me, show me the way.(Oh, if you see me falling down)Lift me up from the shadowsWill you take me away to a better place?(And when I`m in my darkest hour)You`re by my side, to turn the tide,Until the suffering fades.When life is getting me down,Getting me down, i`m close to defeat,Come and lay ur hands on me.Feel this road is getting longer now And i`m too far away from home Still I gotta keep on moving on But I can`t do it on my own Baby keep my head above water Help me swim for my life`Coz the game is getting harder The strain is gettin stronger And I can only face the fight When you lay your hands Oh yeah`Coz it`s the only thing I have that still makes sense

Simon Webbe -- Lay your hands on me

2006-07-09T22:32:00.000+08:00

"I have a desire to love you for eternity. For that to be possible, I'm afraid you have to marry me."

Anon

;]

2006-07-06T12:53:00.000+08:00

by the way. I'm sorry.

love,
zh

2006-07-06T12:23:00.000+08:00

I've decided perhaps this place would be a useful outlet for some expression. After all, blogs while started with the intention for private discourse with a few good men, is actually a self professed, self comforting, self acknowledgement of the need for some regard from others.

That aside, hopefully you guys give me some comments and advice. I've never been so humbled before. All my flamboyance, my street smart-ness and know how, I'm throwing them all away. Humility is a virtue we are either born with or will eventually have to acquire.

Anyways

"And now these three remain; faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love"

1 Corinthans 13:13

What is love?

Before amanda came home, I finally got over being jaded; that I realised love was not anger, pretention or jealousy. I came to an acute understanding that love was well kinda unconditional in a sense. And I acknowledged that I have had a very shallow understanding of life. So I decided to change. I decided to do things totally irrational (like buying a $355 diamond ring). Thing is, when amanda came home, she was changed too. Somehow she got jaded while we were having a rather bad long distance relationship.

While I was initially disappointed and sad, on hindsight I think she's more right then I was or am. I mean, I've been quite a shitty person and while overseas often not commiting properly. It is perhaps kinda my own doing in a sense.

Which brings me to the see-saw or pendulum theory.

Love swings to and fro constantly. The mechanism for control lies not with the two individuals separately but rather with the synergy of them being togther. In other words, the commitment to the relationship demands a certain degree of regard for the wellbeing of the relationship.

Aiyar, anyway this is damn long-winded and my writing truly honestly sucks and you guys probably don't even fucking get the point. But on another thought, while once I believed that you should try as many people, gf's, people before you settle in order to find the best (mash supports this theory) now I really tink that the more the merrier, the more the messier. It really takes a lot of goodness away....makes u jaded sometimes...

Anyways im going to end this and start on my work. I don't want to be jaded cos life isn't that hard that you can't smile. And I'm going back to basics with you. Time is surely a luxury that can be affored to the desired.

leaving America behind

2006-05-13T08:28:00.000+08:00

It's the day before I leave

Frantic administrative sai kang aside, I'm actually quite sad.

Leaving and saying goodbye to all my good friends here is a really sad thing to do.

Driving through all those familiar lanes and streets, signs and sights. The cop car, the homeless, the flashy signboards -- all these i've grown accustomed to and now have to leave behind.

Its going to be tough. Tough leaving this life. Tough leaving such a wonderful school with so much passion and pride. I feel proud being a trojan, if only for a semester. LA is such a crazy city. Hollywood, West Wood, big mansions on hills, beaches and poor people live side by side in a mess that seems incoherent. But its the melting pot of cultures and the fufilment or disappointment of expectations.I mean America is such a well known country that you either appreciate it or hate it. Somehow, I think it will stay close to me.

Its going to be a fucking tough plane ride home. Hell the food's good at home, but the grass is always greener on the other side.

LA LA, somethings just stay close to the heart.

that was e craziest thing ive almost ever done ;];];] ;D

2006-05-02T13:10:00.000+08:00

So basically tis is the idea:

No sleep on Friday. Saturday 6am driving to Grand Canyon in Arizona via Vegas. A trip planned while listening to emo songs with Jeremy while drunk like 3 days before!

So back to no sleep. 4 hr drive to Vegas. 4 hr drive to Grnad Canyon. Sleeping in the car for 10 hours. Waking to Grand Canyon surise. Freezing my ass off in the car -- it was 2 degrees!

Coming home after Grand Canyon 6 hour drive home speeding all the way, driving 200km on a 120km speed highway and we headed straight to a bar.....

40 hours -- 2000km on my Mazda 6

Sleep after was so damn good...

My route: of course we headed up to Vegas for some gambling

too in order to energise us for the trip ;]

6am in boxers ;]

wat a wonderful car. 2004 car of the year

Arrived in Vegas in one piece. Check out my ah-pek dress code. Slippers, Blazer, Cap.Solid.

Champagne glasses from the champagne brunch ;p
Hey darling: Our favourite American truckers ;]
Thats the lion king and his trainer on the left
wtf are we doing here at 7am?

Ah...now thats why

beauty personified
I trekked for a bit to get this amazing shot..me and da rocks.
the edge is just behind us!
wat? and we were'nt even drunk

My last wish

2006-04-27T18:18:00.000+08:00

i love you darling
for all we've been through
we really made it good

thanks for being mine.
as im 23 and really old

im so happy and contended
that i have someone to truly love

happy birthday to u too in advance

muack

thank you all!

2006-04-26T18:05:00.000+08:00

Thanks to all from Singapore, Europe and America for remembering my bday and wishing me in different time zones at totally different times haha...basically my bday is from 24-27 april haha

thanks serene for the song...so sweet of ya
thanks mayhesh for calling, justin for leaving a msg...all da american pple...zubin, geron, luis, evtim, candice, diane, JJ, helen for your kind words and very gd memory (0000hrs aight!)

and thanks to my home boy jeremy for the super present and ever excellent company.. more gd times ahead bro!

finally thanks to amanda love. such a sweet msg...almost reminds me of the time in 2004 when we just got together :P

lets grow old together! haha

p.s amanda eng shu ling owes me bday present from 2005...she conned me last yr....cheater!

IM going to BEIJING!!!!

2006-04-25T12:39:00.000+08:00

SHIOK!!

i'm damn happy.. applied for this module http://scholars.nus.edu/civilizational/ucv2206/index.html

and i got it! yesyes!

so i'm going to beijing 21st may...for 2 weeks...and it only cost 545$

i love USP

So here's da plan. I'm back 17th may...i hang around for 4 days then off to beijing!! haha

fucking travelling the world...so so so happy..

best thing is, my mom is very supportive and if i can extend my trip, will meet my dad in shanghai and maybe japan ;]

its such a gd life i lead... very much blessed....

MIA for a very long time indeed :P

2006-04-23T10:15:00.000+08:00

Wassup all my hommies!

haha its been seriously a while since ive blogged and ive come to realise that blogging is not my thing. Im just too lazy to pen all my thoughts down. i.e i rather go drink beer with a bunch of clowns.

anyways. after europe, i have been busy with school work, projects, a few mid terms( which i did pass) and been busy catching up with a hell lot of friends and travelling all around LA. I have watched a boring baseball game, ate curry chicken, gone to new chinatown endless times, been to Las Vegas ( it was incredible), been to e desert, hmmmm, been partying a bit more, been for sheesha and tried cooking new dishes like crepes and all kinds of different noodles.

Kinda spending a lot of money as i have been goin around trying all kinds of food in LA before i leave. Oh oh very random, but i played in the USC Soccer World Cup for Singapor hahah. I played as DM. We were grouped with the thais, africans and hongkong. We beat africa 2-1, drew 0-0 with thais. and the final game with hongkong, given the thais matched us on points, we actually needed a 4-0 win over hongkong to make our way to e semi finals. We didnt disappoint, played crazy, winning 5-0...heh i scored the 4th goal with a long range shot :P was damn fucking happy, but alas we lost 3-0 to japan in the semis. They were seriously so much more superior, going on to beat china 3-0 in the final.

Anyway my time is almost up in LA. Today is one of those rare days where im home all day (tired after drinking last nite and waking to watch liverpool beat chelsea 2-1!!! yeah fuck morinho!!) and contemplating.

It has been a crazy trip to LA. Studying has been the last priority while the experience of being here and meeting new people has been priority no. 1 since the day i landed here. I have met so many kinds of people from all over the world and am glad i could call america home, if only for half a year.

I tink the most lasting impression i bring home, is the acute sense of being contended that i am Singaporean. Being contended that i speak funny in uncomprehensible english which may seem like chinese or malay or some gibberish rubbish. That identity, together with our utmost love and respect for...chilli..makes us who we are. I never want to take that away.

I'm proud that we have the wealth to experiment and understand the world and are priviledged and blessed to do watever we want.

Im looking forward to going home, theres so much to be done. I have 3-4 business ideas which i would like to implement, as well as try to find internships and opportunities in the region. Life in america has taught me that in life, one has to be driven. if ya want smth. go grab it, and always give 100%.

looking forward to seeing everyone at home. i miss u fuckers. but of course, japan first ;]

haha....pray my mom and dad have gd health.

love
zh

IM BACK!!!

2006-03-29T10:07:00.000+08:00

yo all u guys im finally back from my incredible european trip. And in all honesty, im very impressed by wat i see...and compared to this shady town im living in, i suspect that its gonna take some time to get used to LA again...im hell tired now and its e start of spring which brings more and more rain, hence its time to sleep.

updates with pics soon i promise ;]

ciao!

OFF FOR MY SPRING BREAK

2006-03-10T06:28:00.000+08:00

IM GOING TO MILAN NOW!!

9-26march: milan-bologna-dortmund-cologne-dusserdolf-amsterdam-brussels-berlin-prague-rome-milan!!

5 countries in europe...

seriously can't wait...

;]

mexHico and Europe...the travels just continue

2006-03-07T13:37:00.000+08:00

hola everyone. Just got back from mexico. Went there with my global strategy class. It was really good as 35 of us visited 4 mexican international companies dealing in distribution, telecommunications, lenses and also the hyundai mexico plant. The trip was to understand why companies had comparative advantage in operations and how we could leverage on such understandings. It was partially subsidised by my school and it was for 3 days 2 nights.

My prof is a german kiwi guy who is hell cool. He treated us buffet lunch, tacos supper and he danced at e club...haha. Basically we went down south along tijuana and then ensenada, almost 200km south of the border along the pacific ocean. I had made tis trip with amanda before and it was a wonderful picturesque trip to wonder.

Basically we got drunk on the bus, slept late, drank a lot more, went clubbing and had to wake up at 7ish every morning. The last day, we started muttering nonsence in front of our guest and it was way hilarious. Jeremy and I tried to teach our class singlish and it was way funny as the whole bus was going "relac one corner" "la" and the all time favourite "cheebye!".

Its so amazing that even the most quiet gal in class goes crazy after a few shots of alcohol...our class bonded pretty well and by the end of the trip we had all known each other pretty well.

We went to a supermarket distribution centre and i was shocked when i weighted myself that i was 82KG!! thats 8KG more then when i left singapore. jeremy gained 4 kg. That was so crazy. 8kg in 2 months....perhaps the propensity to grow old and fat is not a far away conclusion after all...

anyways im going to milan-bologna-dortmund-cologne-amsterdam-brussels-berlin-prague-rome-milan in 3 days time! i'll be going for 19 days, missing one whole week of school. It's gonna be so so so crazy as i visit amanda dearest and jannik the german ;)

coming back will be a bitch as i'll have to start studying for my exams...
yup thats all for now..its reaally great being here and im so thankful for the opportunity. Those of u not going on exchange, all i can say is; u guys fucking lost out. big time ;p

cheers!
zh

2006-02-28T17:17:00.000+08:00

Its like 1am and im using jeremy's computer. He moves around in his bed and blurts out

"Sentosa"

in a 3 syllable slow singlish happy 3 year old kid with low voice tone, and continues sleeping.
Like WTF!!! i cant stop laughing now...hahahahha
how connected we are with our homeland....even we recall it in sleep.

and then yesterday i was talking to amanda online

raszgoddess: i dont care u cant go to Cuba without me
zh: I cant promise u, we'll discuss tomorrow ok, its 3am now.
raszgoddess: i wont go till you promise you wont go Cuba without me
zh: wahhhhh not fair leh
raszgoddess: you dont promise I dont marry you....

dui! wtf x 2......hahaha
amanda is how cute ;]

NEW YORK!! new york

2006-02-28T10:50:00.000+08:00

Glimpses of New York for all of you.... ;] enjoy da pictures.... it was so amazing. left over snow and -8 degrees....

supper place at 3am

New York Library

The new yorker hotel

Chelsea's art galleries

Backpacker style

Columbia university

Tired

Metropolitan Museum of Art

I like tis sculpture best ;]

Up on the brooklyn bridge

World Trade Centre Devastation

A good meal to end it all ;]

haha can also check out jeremy's site for more pictures, im super lazy www.jeremyuscphotosite.com

ahhh mexico!!

2006-02-23T15:10:00.000+08:00

hahah im so lazy.... everyone check 0ut amandas blog for mexico and san diego trip....she writes perfect man...with all pictures and details...muacks

www.raszgoddess.blogspot.com
http://www.pbase.com/raszgoddess

hahah will update on New York.... soon.... damn lazy now

hola from NEW YORK!!

2006-02-18T14:46:00.000+08:00

ok im at tis 27$ a day hostel now in times square new york..arrived here around 10pm..went for jap dinenr then walked around in the freezing cold watching snow start to melt...

dropped by a nice live ban bar for a few beers.... now back at e hostel..

gonna b my most mundane of posts, but i realised when ure away from so called home, u blog more somehow...

ok ciao for now.. its -6 tomorrow...

;]

im back!!

2006-02-14T10:09:00.000+08:00

hah amanda dearest was here for 10 days. went went on a 2500km road trip to arizona desert ( east of california) and then went to san diego and mexico....fucking shiok...

too much to blog but check out http://raszgoddess.blogspot.com and she has the first trip blogged down..heh im so lazy...

have to start working for school soon before i create history but failing some subjects.. but im flying to new york this friday haha till next tues....and new york has the worst snow and wind in its long history! 29inches of snow fell yesterday! fuck

internships resumes CV..watever

2006-02-03T09:52:00.000+08:00

spent a whole day doing tis:

Wang Zhenghao David

1275W 29^th St #307 ▪ Los Angeles, CA 90007

Email: d.zh.wang@gmail.com ▪ Cell: (323) 684-7117

EDUCATION

National University of Singapore Singapore

BBA/Double Major in Finance and Management Summer 2004 - Present

University Scholars Programme

University of Southern California Los Angeles, CA

International Exchange Student Spring 2006

WORK EXPERIENCE

The Direktly Group, London London, UK

Research Assistant Summer 2004

§ Part time position under the UK Working Holidaymakers scheme

§ A member of the research team for a mineral exploration venture in the Philippines

§ Research was to form the basis of investment decisions for company

Ministry of Defense, Singapore Singapore

Battalion Finance Administrator April 2002 – Aug 2004

§ Promoted to the rank of Corporal

§ Assisted Finance Officer in funds allocation, budgeting and periodic monthly reports

§ Management of staff welfare, staff assessments and allocation

§ Official secretary of director-level conference

LRI-Logistics Readiness Inspection A grade for work year 2003
Best Soldier award for battalion, 1^stSingapore Infantry Regiment, Aug 2003

Used mobile phone business Singapore Proprietor Nov 00 - Apr 03

§ Procure faulty used mobile phone sets from a variety of sources

§ Recondition the mobile sets, add accessories and reselling at higher prices

S.C Music, Singapore Singapore

Temporary store manager Winter 98

Provide assistance to customers in the music shop Summer 99
Staff planning and reconciliations of daily receipts
Collection and checking of new stocks issued by suppliers

SKILLS and ACTIVITIES

· Volunteered in Cambodia through Singapore Bible College, teaching and preaching to youths

· Including but not limited to Microsoft Office, Adobe Photoshop and Lexis-Nexis

· Fluent in Mandarin and conversational Malay

ho ho i need my USA internship..alignment and font and stuff a bit screwed up...thats when u do a copy paste..hahas

just for the record

2006-02-01T04:51:00.000+08:00

after much complain and whinning from yours truly, Im compelled to say this.

I'M ABSOLUTELY DELIGHTED AMANDA IS COMING DOWN ;] ;]

haha
muacks

dont go online when u r drunk

2006-01-30T05:49:00.000+08:00

happy cny everyone ;] i had a great eve dinner at tis mansion that my dad's taiwanese friend owns. Food was good and the mansion was just wonderful. We had BBQ and beer tho, very un-chinese -- but gambling did follow, as it always happens. I lost 5$. haha

Anyway 2 days ago i was drunk yeah. And i came online. somehow i saw amanda there for only the second time since i came. I was absolutely delighted and when she told me that she was intending to got to spain for 900euros, i "demanded" that she come to Los Angeles. I even offered to pay for all her expenses. When she was hesistent i was actually quite pissed and said something like " im paying for everything, wats there to lose?"

fuck man

the flight was booked the next day 3-13 feb ( so long?!?!) haha. and now im so fucking screwed. Im so happy she's coming, but im going to be so broke. and while shes here i have a finance midterm which hell i have not gone for 80% of the classes. ouch....

love is crazy....you just have to be able to survive it *grins

anyways happy belated bday serene! muacks...

gtg for now..soccer time....bought a nice new pair of boots. (22usd only fr factory outlet!)

take care everyone. i have no ang bao tis yr ;(

its all about the money

2006-01-23T14:50:00.000+08:00

after spending almost 2000usd the past 20 days, i spent 5$ in 2 days. wonderful achievement. haha

There is always peace in death: it cometh quick for the dead but it may never come for those who remain

2006-01-22T11:30:00.000+08:00

My Grandma, Lau Koon Kuan, died 2 days ago, 1330 Singapore time at the age of 83. She had celebrated her birthday one week ago with my grandfather where everyone she knew visited her for we all knew, she did'nt have long to live.

Her death was inevitable once a sever stroke struck her 5 years ago. The fucking thing about strokes, (being fucking painful aside) is that it takes all the life out of a person untill the victim is plagued by all illness possible -- in my grandma's case, inability to walk, to sit, to talk, to go to e toilet, to do anything by herself. Worse off within 3 years, she lost the ability to recognise people, objects or i would imagine, even herself. 6 months ago, she went partially blind. She was bedridden, spent 23 hours on the bed. I never saw her laugh anymore and with time, sometimes i felt like i didnt recognise or want to acknowledge her anymore.

Life is sad when you are old. Who cares if you've been through 2 world wars and bore 6 beautiful kids. Who cares if you once taught cantonese to missionaries and bore a daughter who would become a mother too.

I guess death is a striking reminder of the past. The slow manner of her death, as she sat in her wheelchair in the polyclinic, is mirrored by the slow manner we try to remember her contributions in life. And we realise, that she was beautiful in the way she bore her sufferings and transgressions. 5 years of pain for a joyous life with him above. I thank God for taking her away painlessly for im really glad she has peace now away from this fucking life.

I heard the news at 7am LA time and the calm composure of my mothers voice was strangely comforting. And yet the thing is, all the men of the home: myself, my brother and my dad were not around at all. Ive taken responsibility over the last few years, often unwillingly. But this time i was torn. I wanted to be home, to run the errands till 2am at nights, to be tired toiling away. Not fucking enjoying myself in Los Angeles. But there was no way. My grandfather wanted it to be quick. Funeral the next day and cremation after. He wanted to keep her ashes in his home and wait till his death to put her ashes next to her and throw it into the sea. That sweet old man. I love him to bits. I wanna hold his hand and tell him he's been the best men on earth ive ever known. I wanna tell him that i'll buy him all the durian cake in the world when im home. I just want to be there for them all.

Death leaves pain for those who remain alive. I called my grandpa just now and for 2 minutes i jus didnt fucking know wat to say to him cept that it was alrite and that i would be home in 6 mths. For old people, the death of someone who has lived with them for 60 over years can be very painful. The emotional dynamics just goes down da drain. I hope he stays alive for me. He's healthy, is only 86. He can still walk and think and eat curry chicken. I wanna come home and bring him to eat bak kut teh.

oh wells.in all honesty i was never so close to my grandma. But my grandpa i love dearly. I pray he stays well and happy.

Life is brief when death comes.
We should all cherish it while it shall last.

get a grip on yourselves

2006-01-19T15:54:00.000+08:00

so basically today ive had some thots. About coming in second best. I mean face it Chelsea is gonna win e league and basically the attention now is focused on Liverpool and Man Utd fighting for that "coverted" second spot ( oh wtf haha). No one even talks bout winning the premierships. its absolute unless chelsea fucks up big time ( tink newcastle few years back).

So wats the big deal about coming in second best? ure still a loser mate. And yet there is a fight for it. Kinda reminds me of some second prize fight ive been witnessing for some time. I mean sometimes people are just plain silly. Its like poetry, its like pseudo creativity acting on the heartstrings of emotions-- and it persists and continues in different rhymes and idoms and mataphors. Untill it reaches the saturation pt where we wonder: Is giving up so damn fucking difficult? Or is getting the prize such a big goal all logic goes down da drain?

Sometimes it just pisses me off big time when comparison come in and stuff.
But i shrug it aside as confidently as i would. But ive been complacent before and i will not be again.

at e end, seriously man -- there is no fucking comparison....

let the fight for second best go on. gd luck to e winner. you're still the loser don't u forget that.

enjoying it by the day

2006-01-19T05:23:00.000+08:00

hola, finally a longer post and some pics. im jus too fucking lazy sometimes to post but i better do it more often cos it took me 1 hr to do tis shit man. how do i link my frens pages to my blog? someone help me out here...

anyway its been better living with my housemates. We sorta got a certain anti rhythm going which is we try not to accomodate everyone anymore and in some weird demented sense, it works. I mean we refuse to do anything domestic and the whole house is in a mess haha. But we're all happy in a way. Grins.

Anyways it a very small exchange bunch about 18 of us. 4 of us guys and another italian Davide form the bulk of the clubbing partying gang. The rest are all from hongkong or china or taiwan. All VERY boring shy and well passive and introvert. Theres nothing wrong wid that, just that they stay home and do boring things all day long. But well thats their life and i tink somehow they enjoy it too. Basically we befriended Hosea and Geron american born asians and they have been showing us around and brining us to parties and stuff. Its really cool hanging out with americans. We have met the singaporean group but they are truly boring. Rich but very boring so i try not to hang out too much wid them. After all ive come to da usa to look for americans aint it?

anyways got to go for class now. Hope everything is fine at home. Do send me news or anything man....miss watching football and drinking beer wid u all....

take care mates

pics pics pics ...go go go

2006-01-19T04:41:00.000+08:00

University of Southern California

Zubin from Singapore. Indian dude.. American born. Lives in Grange Road

Those 2 fucking bottles and da table cost us 800USD
fucking expensive in hollywood

Girls fr our rival school UCLA we met at a club in hollywood

Allison is American born, Lives and studied in Singapore
and has parents of indonesian, dutch and filipino blood.

Smashed

Domestic Bliss (wahahahahah)

No dangerous activities.
please

Pepperdine University, University near Hollywood
where e fucking rich and the fucking stupid go to ( i mean
check out the damn name, cant they have come up wid a betta one?!)

Da famous Malibu Beach, but it was fucking cold.
me, martin(denmark), jeremy, Luis, Evtim(bulgaria), Sidrey(norway)

Thai food, pad thai, green curry and CHA YEN at Malibu beach! haha boo amanda!

Meet my colour stylist, Jeremy. My hair is a little brown now ;]

We ate lunch at tis wonderful Italian restaurant
at the universal studios hollywood

Hosea ABT, Jeremy SLACKER, Kimberly ABC

We live on the 29th Street together wid da hommies!

Geron, American Born Filipino. A damn fkg nice guy

Annetta from HK

Fucking pigs...

Boys nite out at Figuroa Hotel, Downtown LA

My Ford Taurus 1995 cost me $1000USD

Girls from the USC ;]

where e fuck is e brotherhood?

2006-01-13T19:33:00.000+08:00

so i finally post somthing after afew days of neglect.

Luis, a spanish guy from Barcelona moved in so now we have 4 under tis roof. Its kinda weird when u out 4 guys together and they have to shop for groceries, cook dinner, wash dishes and clear the rubbish together within 24hours of meeting. DAmn weird la considering guys usually meet thr other frens through soccer or wat not....it really quite hilarious i couldnt help laughing as i walked down the supermarket with Luis talking bout chicken and spanish food and laksa within 5 hours of meeting him.

Anyways i jus got home from my first real clubbing nite. It was in a club white lotus in Hollywood. It was quite cool. Mostly white ang mohs...Went wid Luis, Evtim, tis english guy Ben and tis norway dude Sindre. It was hell fun. The thing is these fuckers aint chill nuff. Its like we;re laughin and joking on our way to hollywood. But once we got into e club, everyone just headed in their own direction as if in some religious trance. Except the religion was to nail a chick ASAP. Like wtf man...i wanted to chill and drink a bit and joke and stuff and all of then individualistic fuckers just had goal in mind. I was really quite pissed off man. Anyways i jus wish they were like Jannik and Janne and Patrick. I mean they were real buddies. We stuck together in clubs, joked and i always got girls to dance with them. I mean it was nice. esp when mash and manbeer came too. Today it was so different and honestly, it sucked.

Anyways tink im gonna have lower expectations bout me housemates. Got a bit of minor stuff to bitch bout the households but ill leave it to another day.

At e end of e day, im glad i came here wid jeremy. I mean he is boring and stuff and kinda lacking in independance. But at least he is a real bro. HE cares shares and he is hell accomodating of my nonsence.

alrite fucking 5 am now. i have a 9am class. sleep beckons.,,

Zzzzzzzzzzz

alrite u fuggers

2006-01-07T18:31:00.000+08:00

well met the 20 exchange students from Marshall Business.... ZERO hot chicks (happy amanda? ;p) but its alrite...our host were damn power.....nice guys...with 3.25 BMW which cost 30k usd. (wtf!) finally drove us into e heart of LA. fucking our USC camus sucks..its in a dump. Seriously shld have chosen UCLA. But USC campus is beautiful admitedly.

Anyway we took a walk with our Bulgarian Boxer dude at 11ish pm, and met tis old black american dude who wanted to "talk to ya [us]" then we walked off and he started cussing and shouting and all. We half feared he might run after us with a knife. haha. thats e fucking neighbourhood we're in.

"-------------Crime Alert 2005-54ADW (Assault with a Deadly Weapon)

DATE & TIME OF OCCURRENCE: December 31st, 2005 at approximately 2:00AM.LOCATION: 1100 block of 30th Street.

REPORTED OFFENSE: Complainant reported that she was walking in the 1100 block of 30th Street when a dark colored SUV drove up to her. The Suspect exited his vehicle and approached complainant with a handgun in his hand. The Suspect then hit complainant across the face with the handgun. Suspect fled the area.

SUSPECT DESCRIPTION (provided by complainants):The suspect is described as a Male black, approx 6'0", 175 lbs. in his 20's. Short black wavy hair and bushy eyebrows. Clothing: Blue jeans, Light colored shirt.

SUSPECT VEHICLE: Dark colored SUV.------------

IF YOU HAVE ANY INFORMATION ABOUT THESE CRIMES, CALL THE DEPARTMENT OFPUBLIC SAFETY AT 740-4321 OR LAPD SOUTHWEST AREA AT (213) 485-6571. "

Great. i live on the 29th street.
And must it always be the black guy, and besides, wtf was that dude thinking?

2006-01-06T15:17:00.000+08:00

They who came to send me off. Thanks to ya all ;]
Anyway i jus arrived not too long ago. Plenty of ugly motherfuggers and homies ard. And guess wat, there has been a mugging incident and a mindless assult where some 6 foot black dude came out of a SUV brandishing a gun and slapped some girl across the face before fleeing. And this happened last week, outside my apartment.

Well fucking done.
No wonder Jeremy is scard. I'm just waiting for the first mugging incident to happen. From the looks of it, its inevitable.

Anyway, the supermarkets here are amazing with big ass HUGE quantities and sizes. Well first thing we bought was beer. 20 bottles of miller lite and it cost only 12USD (mash will go crazy). I think if we just survive on grocery food, we'll be hell rich as well as hell dead from some diabeties or high blood pressure when we come home.

WE got a Bulgarian housemate who just happens to study finance also at Marshall School of Business. One more housemate to go. Evtim the bulguarian hopes its a girl.

Time to sleep now.Orientation is tm. out.